Unfortunately, I have only been back to the Faith for a year, before that I was still in the nothingness of atheism

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Dear Father Bellon,

My name is… and a few days ago I asked to join the translators for the website translation project, offering myself to translate to the German language.

My proposal was accepted. With this email, however, I wanted to ask you to join the Angelic Militia, as I intend to undertake a path of true conjugal chastity with my wife.

(Unfortunately I have only been back to the Faith for a year). Last year I got married, alas, in the municipality of my village, because I was still within the void of atheism. Now I’m working hard to persuade my wife to truly marry. It will be very tough, but it is understandable, from her point of view. In the meantime, I have clearly expressed my willingness to practice chastity until we come to this step, which is of great importance to me now.

I pray every day that we can marry with the sacrament of Christian marriage.

Thank you for reading something about me and below I write my reference details.

Best regards,

Dear Son,

1. Thank you for your willingness to collaborate with our website.

In this way you cooperate effectively for the establishment of the Kingdom of God in the hearts of men.

I am sure that the Lord will be pleased.

I am happy that the Lord always makes you feel his closeness to you: first with the conversion from the void of atheism, then with the desire to walk according to the ways of God with the one who is not yet your wife in all respects, and finally with the collaboration for the translation of the website into another language.

2. I emphasize the expression you used in connection with civil marriage: “because I was still within the void of atheism“.

How perfectly this expression corresponds to the truth!

This is exactly the case, because atheism gives nothing to a person, but rather deprives him or her of everything.

3. I am answering you today 29^th August, day in which we remember the martyrdom of St. John the Baptist.

In the Gospel of this feast it is remembered that Herod was pleased with the dance of the daughter of Herodias, his concubine, and promised to grant her whatever she would ask of him, saying with a hyperbolic expression: “even to half of my kingdom”.

Unlike Herod, Jesus does not promise to those who follow him half of an earthly and transient kingdom, that will have to be left behind in any case, but his whole kingdom which is an eternal and indestructible kingdom.

Indeed, he said: “It is you who have stood by me in my trials; and I confer a kingdom on you, just as my Father has conferred one on me, that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom; and you will sit on thrones judging the twelve tribes of Israel” (Lk 22: 28-30).

Among ancient peoples, eating and drinking at the king’s table was the same as being made to partake of his powers.

Here it is a matter of being made to partake of the very powers of God in his government over the world.

That is what the Saints in Heaven are doing.

This is what you can already do in this world especially through Holy Communion.

4. Saint Teresa of Avila says: “Do not miss such a beautiful opportunity to discuss your interests as the one offered after communion” (The Way to Perfection, 34,10).

Saint Faustina Kowalska confides that one day the Lord said to her: “The Lord tells her: “I desire to unite with human souls; My delight is to unite with souls. Know, My daughter, that when in Holy Communion I come into a human heart, my hands are full of graces of all kinds and I want to give them to the soul, but souls do not even pay attention to Me. They leave me alone and take care of other things. Oh, how sad it is for Me that souls do not know Love! They behave with Me as with something inert” (19.11.1937).

I underline two expressions in this beautiful statement: “my hands are full of graces” and “of all kinds“. Those are graces of a temporal and of a supernatural order.

We are all invited to test whether this is true, as long as the Lord is received in a worthy way, in the grace of God, without serious sins that stain the soul and prevent the Lord from becoming present and acting.

5. Now you are in the position of being able to be confessed and to receive Holy Communion, although not where you are known as only married in a civil way.

Even though you live in an irregular situation, but now with the resolve to live according to God’s ways and in chastity, you can experience how true is what Saint Teresa of Avila and Saint Faustina Kowalska said.

In your Communions, your first thought be for the one who lives next to you and who needs to regain the sight of faith, that is, to see her life and her future with the very eyes of God.

The grace of Holy Communion is such a great good that the giving up of any sin is well worth it.

Indeed, “What profit is there for one to gain the whole world yet lose or forfeit himself?” (Lk 9:25).

6. Do not forget the great promise of Jesus: “If you keep my commandments, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and remain in his love.

I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and your joy may be complete” (Jn 15: 10-11).

Jesus promises fullness of life in the present and in the future life.

On the other hand, atheism ensures nothingness on this side and prepares for the self-deprivation of God on the other side, and the consequent suffering for the deprivation from all that is good.

I thank you for this testimony that comes directly from your experience as an atheist and as a believer.

I wish you well, I remember you in prayer and I bless you.

Father Angelo